Today was freaking flawless. I got to meet Josh Grelle (Armin Arlert) and Jason Faunt, who was the red ranger in Time Force Power rangers I believe. They were both really friendly and cool, and I’m glad I could meet them!
And I flipped out when I found that Star-Lord. He was perfect, and danced around with headphones on. Same with Kim Possible. My childhood ;w;
Look I know I’m not the best. I’m not the greatest actress who ever lived. And I’m fat and ugly but not enough to be considered for a comic part but enough that my voice doesn’t match how I look. I know I sound too classical singing wise and my dancing is awkward from the amount of sweat and fat but SERIOUSLY!!!
JUST GIVE ME A FUCKING CHANCE!!!
I don’t know if I’m sad or I’m pissed. I thought I did so well with And Then There Were None. I thought I’d at least get a call back. My cold read with the General felt like it meshed so well. But instead I had to try not to cry at khols when I get the phone call saying that they didn’t want me. At least with with STC and Capital Stages they were equity and I had a much smaller chance, and with Shrek I knew it wasn’t necessarily my style. But with Shrek the only heartbreak was having to find out that my fucking nemesis from high school got Fiona while I got nothing. But with And Then There Were None I was so happy. I felt it was my best audition in a long time, I felt I really had a chance for Vera. Now I’m going over and over in my head trying to figure out what the FUCK I did wrong!
I love acting, I really do, but this is turning into the definition of insanity. I haven’t made shit in four years, I haven’t done anything really since high school. So what am I doing wrong? Is it my look? My voice? Do I have no talent? WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WRONG?!
The fact is most of you won’t care to read this and that’s fine. My alma mater has forgotten me around the time that I thought they would. So let me rant and cry and not drown my sorrows in crap rose because I have work tomorrow.